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The importance of communication

Wed, 25 Oct 2006 17:29:02 GMT

I hate all lack of communication. I recently lost a friend because of a communication problem. I hate it.

It is very difficult when people communicate online. There are no facial expressions... no smiles... no twinkle in the person's eyes. It is very hard to read someone's thoughts.

This is especially hard when the two people in question don't speak each other's languages natively. It makes it so hard.

Something else that frustrates me: If someone asks you what you want and you tell them "whatever you want is fine". You can't complain about what you get! It does not make any sense. Especially if that person believes that he gave you exactly what you expected.

How can someone be angry in that situation? I don't understand that.

It confuses me.

It saddens me.

I hurt inside.

I feel empty.

Spooning...

Sun, 01 Oct 2006 04:17:52 GMT

Spooning is nice... intimate without sex. It's a closeness that's very comforting and can be very loving. With lovers, it can be a prelude to sex (or something afterwards). With very close friends, it can even just be friendly, but it can be more complicated than that; there are a few problems that may occur. For example:

1) Upper hand placement.
- Assuming I'm in back and on my left side, my right arm has to go somewhere. Whether it's subconscious or not, it always winds up on the boobs. It just seems that the particular angle and position is very comfortable for my arm. I am very respectful of women, so I honestly would not go for the cheap "accidental" grope. I will try to move my hand in a better position... on my hip or hers? Doesn't feel snuggly enough. Arm in front of the boobs, away from her body? Feels very awkward and not intimate enough. Arm in front of boobs, touching, but hand up hear her neck? OK, but awkward position.
So, I wind up closing my fist or facing my hand away so it doesn't seem like I'm trying to grab them.

That problem is partially solved, but then we move onto the larger issue...

2) Accidental arousal
- OK, this has the potential to change the whole dynamics of a budding relationship. It can, at the very least, be really embarassing. At the worst, can make a girl think you're an asshole pervert.
If I am attempting to spoon with someone with whom I have spooned with a lot in the past, like someone I have a long-term sexual relationship with, things will probably be OK or at least not a big issue. But, if I don't know this person well, or this is a potential relationship, I'll probably get a little... err... aroused, which can complicate things. This is mostly an involuntary problem.
The worst thing about this situation is that my brain will sabotage me. I will think to myself "Shit... I better not get hard". OF course, this makes me think about it. Then my mind will think about all the things that could be accomplished with my fully aroused state. I will literally bite my tongue to try to stop the reaction, but, as any man knows, the close proximity of warm soft woman-flesh pretty much predetermines my failure.
So then I am left with either the awkwardness of both of us being very aware of my erection and her being too polite to say anything, or hearing her say "Umm... Is that your dick?". The only true option I have is to awkwardly bend at the waist a little bit more so that the front of my groin is not touching the back of her body. This is not comfortable, and she still knows what happened.

Sometimes I feel like I'm putting too much thought into things. Man, why is life so complicated?

American Idol Breastages

Thu, 16 Feb 2006 14:33:38 GMT

Is it me or are there a lot more breasts in this year's American Idol?
I'm not complaining. In fact, I'm rewinding and watching again, just to make sure :)

Clean off your monitor...

Wed, 15 Feb 2006 17:45:15 GMT

Apparently, this was supposed to be a silly way to clean off your monitor...

I think it's a good excuse to look at some nice boobies:)

http://www.25-88.com/clean_your_monitor/brush.swf

My fantasy... was I thinking of you???

Mon, 13 Feb 2006 16:19:30 GMT

I see you standing there, looking out the window, looking sexy in your underwear.
I walk up behind you and run my hands up your sides.
When my hands reach your hips, I reach around and caress your stomach.

I move upwards and cup your breasts.
I press my body up against yours from behind.
I gently roll your nipples around with my fingers as I kiss your neck.
You can feel my bulge pressing against you.
I move my hands down your stomach, pressing you towards me... over the front of your panties, but to the side... avoiding too much contact, while I lightly nibble on your ear.
I bring one hand up the inside of your thigh and very, very gently put my fingers on the outside of your panties.... the other hand moves up to cup your breasts.
I start to go down to my knees, slowly kissing down your back....
I kiss the tops of your thighs from behind....
I then pull your panties down slowly, exposing your wetness.
I start to massage your legs, starting at the ankle... up to your knees... kissing and massaging.
I keep massaging up your thighs... you try to spread your legs. I don't let you.
My face is right behind you, between your legs.
You can feel my breath... so close.... I can smell you... it makes my mouth water.
I bend you over so that your hands are on the window and your pussy is right in front of my lips...
I stick my tongue out and, ever so gently, part your lips with one lick from top to bottom.
Your body shudders... I can see the wetness inside you...
I wet my tongue and then gently circle your clit with it, hearing you gasp when I touch it.
I put both my hands on your ass and bury my tongue deep inside your wetness, finally tasting you like I've desired the whole time.
You feel my tongue, long and straight, as I fuck your pussy with it… in... and out...
Every time I come out, I flick your clit with my tongue and then plunge back in... Your juices are all over my face
You look down as you are bent over and see my hard cock, inches from the floor
I moan into your pussy in pleasure... I love tasting you...
But I must have you.
I can not ignore my cock any longer.
I stand up... and move you over to the bed...
I lay you on your back.
I look down and have to lick you one more time...
then, I position my self over you and put thehead of my cock on your wet pussy...
you feel it pressing against you...
you try to help get it in, but I don't let you...
I push my cock in you only 1 inch....
just enough so you can feel how thick it is... and so you know you want more
I move it in and out just one inch .... you squirm, trying to get more of it
“Do you want more?"
“YES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!”
I lie down on top of you so that our bodies mingle together... you brace yourself for it....
I push my cock in one more inch....
I move my hips in and out... left to right.... 2 inches of my cock inside you... driving you
crazy...
"Are you sure you want more?"
You keep struggling... trying to get more of me inside you
You are so wet, the sheets are already soaked...
"YESS!!!"
I slowly push in another inch....
... and another...
... and another....
I still hold back... 5 inches of me feels so good...
I come back out...and in a few times... so hard.. so thick
With a smile on my face, I say "Are you sure that's not too much?", already knowing the answer...
“Fuck me!!!!!!!!!!!!!”
"I can take some back if you want..."
“noooooooooooooooooo!”
At that moment, I thrust all 7 1/2 inches into you...
You waited so long, it feels like 12
My body is pressed hard up against you...!
You have waited so long, you are moving your hips in circles on my cock... trying to make yourself cum
You feel my breath on your ear, labored…
You hear a whisper: "I love feeling your tight wetness on me".
You feel yourself getting closer to climax…
I have to concentrate to prevent myself from cumming too soon
I'm slowly pulling my cock all the way out....
... and then putting it all the way back in....
Your legs are locked behind me, trying to keep me in, but I fight to pull it back out slowly...
I slowly slide it back in....
I ask you “Do you want to ride this cock?”
“Do you want to fuck yourself on me?”
You say “Yes!” frantically, barely containing yourself.
With my cock still buried deep inside you, I grab your hips and roll us over onto my back
You are now sitting on top of me, keeping me deep inside you...
You don’t go up and down, you keep most of your weight right on my cock, moving your hips in circles
My cock is moving around inside you as you move... your clit is pressed against my body...
You keep looking down... seeing where our bodies meet, watching..
You raise up... so you can see the entire length of me... my cock parting your lips...
Then you watch as you lower yourself on me....taking all of it inside you
I whisper "Do you want to feel my hot cum inside you?"
You whisper back “yes”.
I say, louder "Would you like to me to cum inside you!?" "Do you want that!?"
You yell “Yes! Yes!... Yes” as you start to cum…
I feel your pussy squeezing me while you cum and can’t take it any more… I push my hips off the bed as I moan “"Oh… god!... I'm cumming"...
You feel my cock pulsing inside you as my hot cum shoots inside you…
My body shudders over and over again, filling you with my cum
Finally, my breathing slows, I start to relax and I say "God, that was amazing"
My cock is still hard... I keep it inside you, still moving my hips around very slowly.
I rub my hands over your body and pull you to me... kissing your shoulder
I Rubbing your back, kiss your neck.. still inside you
As I grow limp, my cum spills out of you to mingle with your juices on me and the sheets as we slowly relax and fall asleep..

Jennifer Love Hewitt to do Playboy?

Tue, 07 Feb 2006 03:36:00 GMT

I just read a rumor that Jennifer Love Hewitt is doing a spread in Playboy. Now, I haven't even seen a copy of that magazine in YEARS, but I might just have to buy it to see that. I have had a crush on that girl for years. She and Alyssa Milano have been my long-term Hollywood crushes.

... *pause for mental threesome* ...

...

...

OK. Done.

how long,,,, ?

Thu, 05 Jan 2006 19:03:12 GMT

I am wondering if I am the only person out there who masturbates for 2-4 hours....

Anyone else do that?

dreaming about my ex...

Thu, 22 Dec 2005 03:35:47 GMT

I had a dream last night that I tracked down my ex-gf. I haven't seen or heard from her in a long time. I wonder what she's been doing.

I just realized that I still remember what all of her body parts look like in detail.

Is that unusual?

first post

Thu, 17 Nov 2005 16:05:20 GMT

stroptivaya made me start this journal...

She's hot, by the way...